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Signs..

i had an interesting yet scary chat with my colleagues a while ago. we were discussing abt the recent "chopped up body parts" case. i was told by one of my student's maid(who happens to be a filipina) that the murderer's husband and sons had committed suicide. only one of the sons is saved. it is so tragic. i understand how the family is going thru but committing suicide is juz not the right resolution.

anyways, the whole point of my post here is not bcos of this. we were juz merely discussing abt it when one of my colleagues, wendy, suddenly juz blurted out that the world is going to end. i mean how true can that be, we can NEVER know for sure. but sure, the signs are all there. i may not be the right person to talk abt religion and stuff but i DO know a lil bit of it, though not much.

we talked all the way back to the earthquake dat happened in turkey and we moved on so forth. we came upon SARS(that was scary), bird flu, tsunami(even scarier), terrorisms, earthquakes and the latest saga, typhoon Katrina and the deadly denggi fever. all that i hv mentioned are natural disasters excl the terrorism. if u noticed, all this happened in juz a mere few years which i will have to say, less in 5 years? am i right? so wats my point? these are actually signs of the end of the world. i mean i can nvr predict when NOR does anyone. but i belived it will happen. if not soon, then later. scary. but i believe in wat the holy Qur'an says..

it makes me think, ponder abt wat will happen when THAT day comes. sometimes i dun believe in certain things but i'm taught in a way that i CANT question Him. its wrong. its sinful bcoz that shows my believing towards Him. sure there are things that can nvr be explained but how do i get my certainty?? mum always said that if i wanna know, i must be close to Him. how? yes. pray to him. i admit i dun pray. even at difficult times, i dun pray to Him. only when i'm abt to sleep, i will think of Him. only when darkness fills me at night, do i say my prayers to him.

as i typed this down, i begin to ponder abt my life. my life is full of sins. it is so scary that i always cry whenever i think of it. maybe these are all signs for me to repent. He lets me see wat is going on to the rest of the world. He shows me the signs. He wants me to repent. To repent b4 its too late.

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