i think its about time to talk about me. yes. me. boring me.
i realised this pregnancy makes me look damn haggard. damn selekeh. damn tak betol. damn emo. damn sensitive. damn sembarangz. even hubby noticed it. so that means, i am DAMN TEROK la.
i've been looking damn shagged and pale, when i didnt do anything to make me as such.
the hair's a mess, let alone the brows. ahahahaha! so damn lazy. apa nak jadi dgn aku. i dun even iron my clothes now (wat more hubby nya baju!! masya'allah!!).!! soooooooo cannot imagine me now. the used-to-be-so-bloody-vain-me, has gone extremely cant-be-bothered. how???????? this is bad, u know. damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn bad.
the saddest part is, i have not fast a single day yet. bad me. i know. i tried. it's not that i did not try. i tried to fast but by 1pm, i started to shake and shiver. and i felt weak. damn weak. i tried, ya Allah. pls 4give me. but everybody kept assuring me its ok if i cant, coz im pregnant. i knw. but nak bayar balik tu menyiksa. takpe. i will still try for the remaining days.
and... Audi. has been very cranky. sometimes, i feel like smacking him. tapi kesian. dia tak bersalah. i feel like breaking down.
:(
and i kept thinking and dreaming of my late father. i really, really miss him. how i yearned for him.
:( :(
how do i get through this pregnancy faster?? i feel the blues almost everyday. the last thing i need is a pre-natal depression.
i juz realised how sappy this post is. i better stop here.
let me end this post with Audi eating swensen's ice-cream. heh.
