It's juz u & me, against the world ♥

.:: DAYS AWAY ::.

the stringy mucus has been making its appearance for almost a week now. and last sat nite, i found A STREAK(not streakS, hor) of blood together with it.

ahhhh... so its juz a matter of days away!! (like duh!!!) and i was told that labour could EVEN be A WEEK LATER!! wth!! so more waiting lah. oh crap.

i was beginning to wonder, maybe the date was calculated wrongly. if my due date is stated on the 8th of this mth, it means baby was conceived on my birthday(ehem.ehem). but i still had my menses on 5th of june, meaning the due date SHOULD be on the 12th. but doc said its possible to be STILL getting menses even though i've conceived. gotta agree on that. look at all those reports about mothers not knowing their pregnant, when suddenly they juz pop!!

and yes. im VERY VERY stressed up. i mean why shdnt i??? ppl who are due wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy later than me(as in really wayyyyyyyyyyyyy later), have already given birth!! bah!!!!!

as u wished la, darling baby!! yea. u can spend another month in there if u wished to.

i'll be MORE than happy to do more waiting. like real. pfft.

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You're all I ever wanted ;

.:: [Insert Screams and Shrieks Here] ::.

i've returned.

with no baby in tow.

yep. u heard it rite. i hv not given birth YET. *wails loudly*

i've only come back with a new pc. not laptop. learnt my lesson. crappy shit. but hey, i love the pc. thx HUBBY. wahahahhaa. (except that i dunno how the windows vista actually works!!)

so my boy decided to be a March baby(if he still doesnt wanna come out by today, dat is). and i had my check up yesterday. had the VE done again. and boy, was it painful!!!! my gynae wanted to feel boy's head but apparently, my cervix still 1cm in dilation. so... i cannot be induced lah. otherwise, i'll be having a 12 hr labour. nak mampus!!!!!

imagine my disappoinment. i simply cant enjoy the last few weeks of pregnancy. i dunno why, but i get depressed so easily. :(

but anyway, baby, pls come out ASAP. VE is no shiok at all afterall. mummy is suffering. better still, come out 2moro. hehehhe

p/s : congrats to sis-in-law for making yet another quick production. LOL!

Labels: check-ups., pregnancy

You're all I ever wanted ;

.:: UNDECIDED ::.

i went for the check up and i had THE VE done today as well.

*clap hands* LOL!

tak stim and tak sakit. LOL! LOL! LOL!

and i m already 1cm dilated. which is very miserable. and so the doc did the scan.

and suddenly she shrieked, "WAH! SO BIG AH!!"

ah??

so apparently the boy is 3.3kg. YIKES YIKES YIKES YIKES YIKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and she asked me straight away whether i wanna be induced or not. and im like WOAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... coz i heard that being induced is a painful procedure. and so i asked the stupid millionaire question.

me: "painful or not?"

doc: OF COZ LAH!! must use epidural!! so how?? this tuesday ok?? i see u on tues.

and there i was, stunned as hell. i was alone by the way, coz i told the husband not to take leave as i want him to save it for the birth of the boy.

if u must know, i have been having BH the whole day yesterday. so maybe that explains the 1cm dilation.

so now, im undecided. to be induced or NOT to be induced. but inducing is better than c-sect rite? but it is definitely MORE painful than the latter. no??

well u tell me.

*sigh*

this is not gonna be easy after all.

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(UPDATED)

i hope this helps, to those who asked me wat induction means.

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Induction is a way of artificially bringing on labour in a woman.

Common causes for induction include:

-The baby is believed to be getting too big.
-Postdate pregnancy, i.e. if the pregnancy has gone past the 42 week mark.
-Intrauterine fetal growth retardation (IUGR).
-There are health risks to the woman in continuing the pregnancy (e.g. she has pre-eclampsia).
-Premature rupture of the membranes (PROM); this is when the membranes rupture, but labour does not start within a specific amount of time.
-Premature termination of the pregnancy (abortion).
-Scheduling concerns.

Criticisms of induction
Induced labour tends to be more intense and painful for the woman, often leading to the increased use of analgesics and other pain-relieving phamaceuticals (Vernon, 2005). This cascade of intervention has been shown to lead to an increased likelihood of caesarean section delivery for the baby. (Roberts 2000). Inductions should only be undertaken for significant medical reasons, but some feel that doctors show increasing propensity toward induction simply for personal convenience or to relieve load on hospital facilities. "[Induction] enables doctors to practice daylight obstetrics," says Dr. Marsden Wagner, a neonatologist who served for 15 years as a director of women's and children's health in industrialized countries for the World Health Organization.

(for more, go to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Induction_(birth) )

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You're all I ever wanted ;

.:: STILL HERE ::.

i m still here, in case u're wondering.

nope. the boy still does not wanna pop out yet although im alreasdy in my 38th week. its ok. i'll wait. if i cant stand it any longer, i might juz rip my tummy open.

:)

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You're all I ever wanted ;

.:: bluek ::.

NOTHING can justify the words/actions u've said/done on that sun.

yes. my heart is/i am still reeling in pain.

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yesterday's contractions turned out to be a false alarm again. DARN!!!! i give up!! i give up wondering/visualising/imagining how the pain will be like!! and to think i had the contractions the whole day yesterday!!

pfft.

nvm. i'll juz wait. wait. and do more waiting. this waiting game is driving me up the wall!!! aiyoh SON, is it REALLY that comfortable in there?? the fact is, i'm not comfortable at all now. im so so so so so tired.

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so i heard my male cousin, who is of the same age as me, whom i always regard asa bro, is getting engaged!!! BUT only pplan to tie the knot in 3 yrs!! gasp!! that's a bit too long hor!! must drill his brain a but lah. but nevertheless, im happy for him!! ahakz!! congrats anyway!!

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my house is in a mess. esp the kitchen. the dishes hasnt been washed since last sun. im nt doing it. im very tired. i do ALMOST everything in the house. i sweep and mop the floor, wash the clothes, scrub the 2 darn toilets in my condition. spare a thought for the heavily pregnant lady who CLD be due anytime.

maybe i'll juz let my parents see since they r coming over the weekends.

i really had it up til there.

seriously, i need a break.

im extremely tired. with everything. incl the ASSIGNMENTS.

Labels: announcements, crib, feelings, pregnancy

You're all I ever wanted ;

.:: ACHING ::.

my heart still aches. my feelings still hurt. my cheeks still sore. my eyes still puffy frm the intensive crying. after wat u've said and wat u did, i dun think i can forgive u on that. NEVER, even if in future, even if things ever gonna be ok. everything has already embedded and tatoo-ed in my mind. i wldnt forget a single thing. i will not.

even my boy behaves himself. he knows his mummy is very depressed and hurt. im sorry son, for not eating. i hv totally lost my appetite. but i tried. i tried eating for ur sake. and not anybody else's. wish u can come out earlier so u wldnt hv to suffer my depression.

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on a brighter note (IF it is bright enuff), im coming to my 37th week of pregnancy already. which means i can safely give birth anytime frm now. my back aches. the braxton hicks is oh-so frequent that at times, at nite, i really tot it was time. ( YEAH. I WISHED!!)

the only thing i look forward is, to receiving my son. tapi bila eh. mcm lama gitu. hehehe..

everybody else has given birth. incl my colleague, who wasnt due til LATE MARCH. can u believe it?? haha. i think my pistachio still finds it comfortable although he is all squashed up in my tummy. ahakz.

and my legs are aching like crazy. and yesterday, i got simpul biawak on BOTH my LEGS at the SAME time!! all hell broke loose i tell u!! imagine my pain!!! hyuk hyuk hyuk!! crazy lah.

p/s : i kinda love my skin now. no pics of me. ahahah.

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You're all I ever wanted ;